October 22nd, 2014


His dove

When i saw him it was a spark that bruned my soul , i never knew how hard i would fall how much he woul mean to me the things he said did he saw in to my soul and the love he gave me i never knew i could have love like him he makes every day worth living when i was brought back i had no place then i saw him and i knew i could never be unhappy with him he is my whole world the man i love the vampire who has my heart he brings so much out of me he makes me fee free and wild and safe and loved all at once he knows what i like and meets all my needs he makes lifre better i will spend the rest of my life loving hi and letting him know what he means to me i am his loving dove his muse he is my vampy and i know that whenever he is near i will know love he is my forever my heart and soul my vampy My spike the whole world and i know i am his dove

done things i am not proud of

Before the magic before collage before, willow before my life had started i had things did things no human would own up too. i met someone and got in deep i did anything to make him happy, i have a dark past and its something i never thought i would think of again .until my brother donny found the picture in my old room i must of left it there underneth my dresses i almost killed someone and i never thought i would be able to face anyone i kept it to myself for so long it ate away at me untill i could not handle the gult and fear of being found out . i was so worried if anyone from sunnydale had seen this seen the things i did to gain a friendship it was something i never thought i would get or to be loved and looked upon as someone of value . but i never knew what that could feel like at home all women were told they were demons so i embacerd it i saw it as that who i was i tortured a man and back then its who i thought i was , I was scared and unloved but then sunnydale happen and i never looked back left that as part of the past and that no one saw me as that. Then i met willow fell in love we lost or love then i was taken from this world and i wa not whole this wighed on me it shook me living my sunnydale happiness as a lie, but then willow she brought me back . love we lost could not be repaired but we had both moved on she found her hero and i found mine in my husband spike the one true love for me but still never told anyone the badness of my past i found the photo today while cleaning and i can not keep it any longer it is a part of what I was , i am not proud of it but i cant keep it to myself it is something i have to get off my chest and be done with it to close that part of my life i will not be reacked with the sadness of it so now it done the world knows but I am not proud of it but i will own it

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